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[Feb. 11th, 2005|05:51 pm] |
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so i got a new journal. its new. chilly_nights. addit bitches.
i havent written in it yet, but nothing has really happened to write about.
so |
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[Feb. 1st, 2005|08:34 pm] |
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oh geeez. i have my memory test tomorrow, and even though everybody thinks it wont happen i have a feeling that they will put really sticky zappers in my hair and then there will be a malfunction adn they will zap my brain and then i will be retarded.
my parents are going to new orleans fiday for mardis gras adn then on a business trip. so my grandparents will be here for a week and a half. so everybbody who likes my granny's soup and food and likes to say happy birthday homie is welcome to come stay with me for a week and a half.
i bought the matchmaker results today just to see who i should marry. and i was reallly nervous it would end up being a very tiny foreign boy.. but it wasnt so im good. me and jessica officially have nowhere to sit at lunch. my neighboor keeps following us. and im sick of yelling at them and showing my battle scars to get them to go away.
and to finish off the evening i would like to add that i hate myself. i need to do something fun. and somebody needs to take me to do something fun. very badly. pleasasssseesse.
and i took that test to see how old your inner child is and i got 15. which is neat. but i wont post it because i dont like doing it. |
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[Jan. 29th, 2005|01:39 pm] |
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there should be a law that borders isnt allowed to run out of cds. i tried to buy the new bright eyes and they were OUT. now that just wont do. but i bought a collection of bright eyes any way from 95-97. havent listened to it yet. a couple days ago i made a joke and said that i found a new band and it was kelly clarkson. keep in mind. i do not like her. well, my sister believed it and thought i like kelly clarkson and i was just wondering if that was the image i project. kelly clarkson. think no.
today i was straightening my hair and i went to close to my head and burned it, now i have had a head ache for like 4 hours.
if you could do one thing with me in the WORLD what would it be?
latly i have been listening to music louder than a train because i think if i cant hear myself think i cant think anything sad. alli can do ist scream at the top of my lungs and sit. i think it might be a way to block out sad thoughts and only be happy. sounds like a good idea to me. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2005|08:22 pm] |
i think im starting to like my new shreds. courtesy of lauren catherine louise phillips.
and i might even go onto the wild side.. and wear it up. maybe nextweek you might even see me premier a head dress. also known as a headband.
and what is with people leaving entry size paragraph form comments. from now on ill be doing a max of 10 words. like iambic pintameter except not syllables, words. im reading a midsummers night dream and i like it, i was going to see that tiny proformance tonight but i keep falling asleep for 15 hours a day.
carly gave me a charleston chew for christmas and i am sorry to say it, but it is hard to bite.
i know im insane. but i was watching the oc and i officially hate mischa barton.
i think im going to be like carly and try to go on a food strike.
and there is a girl in my sisters class with the middle name of DRAGAN. because shes foreign and thats how they do. |
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[Jan. 25th, 2005|03:54 pm] |
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hey remember that time i fractured my rib partying the night away at lauras house?
and the time jessica kept saying osma bladin
and the summer when all we did was paint our toenails and go to walgreens
and when me and carly got attacked by bees at lunch and then proceded to almost get locked out of the school and were to scared of getting suspended, so we ate the rest of our lunch in the cafeteria.
good times.
i think im going to start hugging people more. because i like hugs. so keep that in mind. |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2005|01:15 am] |
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alright well. i like to update today.
i went to carlys today to eat some pie and drink some rootbeer. i ate this chocolate sundae pie but i dont know if that counts as actual pie. and we watched blazing saddles and it was funnny and everything but i really voted for escaping new york, it looked amazing. carly got me a police set for christmas. i am in love with my badge. we also watched a half dozen babies on abc family, it was about a married couple who wanted babies, so the wife pawned her wedding ring to get some fertility drugs. so then they find out she is going to have FIVE CHILDREN, then her mother in law gets lung cancer because her father in law smokes. shame on him. and then when she has the babies, surprise. she has 6. it was trying so hard to get you emotionally attached it was insane. but it was funny..
i am nice. |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2005|04:14 pm] |
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oh man
everone else gets something cool
i get pants.
so for now i think ill just imagine those certain pants sparkly and zebra stipe or something with a lot of buttons. this is the third entry in two days. tahts the end of it. im setting an update limit for myself. look out |
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[Jan. 21st, 2005|04:24 pm] |
walking away, its not the same now is it to you now taht youve run this in the ground and you say take this/ this medicin is just what you deserve/ swallow choke and die/and this bitter pill is leaving you in such and an angry heart one tahts void of all discression/such an awful tearing sound/ its measure only equaled by the power of my stare/ wearing over you and over you this feeling of dispair/ its never wearing offf
i dont know. but thats the only song ive been listening to for like the past forty five minutes.
its sad. and ive been crying every time i hear it. for the past forty five minutes. |
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[Jan. 21st, 2005|03:47 pm] |
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ive discovered i dont think im a very good person. and recent studies have shown that other people are getting that effect to. but i dont know how to change myself. it's hard to do that. so for the next bit i think ill just sit on my couch. call me please if you have any pointers. or just advice on what NOT to say. because taht would help to.
maybe they have a personality pill.
the vicodin i think is making me really tired.
i lost my taking back sunday cd. |
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[Jan. 14th, 2005|02:58 pm] |
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hip hop and rap got 29%
that officially means im representin biatch |
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[Jan. 13th, 2005|08:11 pm] |
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i do declare i think i like how my slam poem turned out i proformed it today i was going to put it in here but i realized whoever wants to see it can just ask me
i've been listening to burst and bloom and i definatly like it alot i think im in all with it like/love/adoration yes all three
semester is over tomorrow and LAUREN IS COMING TO MY SCHOOl in normal clothes none of that pleated plaid skirts or any of that nonsense and we have realll boiz at my school and we are going to walk down an actual hallway together during school hours and on the school premisis and you know what that means she will be getting publicly institutionalized
in case nobody noticed i have not used any puntuation in this entire entry
ps ms laura i want to rent a movie and i want it to be
i dont know you choose |
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[Jan. 10th, 2005|10:22 pm] |
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alright. here is the down low on the weird small doctor's diagnosis of me by talking to me and my parents for all of .78 seconds.
my brain stem got shook up and that might have misplaced some nerves so here are some effectos-
1)higher temper-the thing is, he says that i wont be able to notice it happen. that i will think im being perfectly logical. that it will only be the people around me that start to notice. but he's only asking my parents, and all they talk to me about are the accident or homework. and right now either is going to get me pretty mad having to talk to them about it. do they ask me how my day went? no. so lets try that one.
2)DUMB.-i am going to be dumb. they dont know, but it will show if my grades drop.
3)making up words like effectos.it might come from compensation, trying to sound smarter, but only to be dumber because i made it up. i also made up that rule. but it could happen.
4)what was that again?- forgetting random things. like today i got home and couldnt remember what the hell i was doing in my math homework.
so pretty much, ill be angry, but think im right, and not remember being mean to people, and all the while, ill be STUPID. taht was my diagnosis, as compared to mr. disproportion.
and i cant rememebr anything else. remember, i might have limited short term memory. |
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[Jan. 7th, 2005|06:40 pm] |
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hi. this is lauren updating for vickie cause shes a fatty. she never updates anymore so im taking over ths jkghthydsft hahaha!!!! jessica just showed me her boobs. im sorry. b00bs. okay so heres the deal. oohoo!! we're all going to put our bathing suits on, get way loaded and smoke a ton of weed. then were gonna run outside onto my porch and jump in the snow. naked. oh my god. it will be great. vickie really needs to stop doing cocaine. im serious, everyone in favor of vickie quitting concaine say NIGGGAAAAA |
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[Dec. 22nd, 2004|12:26 am] |
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okay this is the second entrie today but i just thought i would be like everone else and say what i did today, well i went to get the mail and i got a jewish letter that said i volunteered over the phone to collect change for the jewish education fund and i was like WTFFFW? i never talked to any jewish foundation about their financial needs and how i can be of assitance. i just dont understand, and they spelt my name right and no foundation does that unless i tell them to and i do not recolect speaking with them. so then i made a pact with myself to be happy. because i do not want to go to a psychiatrist. so i am going to be happy after thurday. no. beginning thursday. so if anyone has anything ot say to me that might make me sad you have to say it on wednesday.
and i just need jessica and lauren and carly to know that in the er wehn you guys were there, it didnt hurt as bad as it could, becasue you being there just seemed to make it fade a bit. but when you left it got 4423 times worse. and that's why i got so upset when you left. because i knew if you left then real life would be gone, all i would feel was pain, not love for people standing by me, or all the memories to distract me. and right now i think its the same, you being here still makes the pain fade, and if you leave then nothing will be the same, but this time ill be stuck with the pain. and now that it's over i wanted to say taht. and laura, thank you for the dandilion you brought me my first day home, and the card where you wrote me my name as a poem, and the friday you and carly visited me and took pieces off those bushes,and scared a girl out of her hospital room, because it made me feel normal. |
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[Dec. 21st, 2004|08:20 pm] |
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im sad.
leave me something happy please. |
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[Dec. 8th, 2004|08:50 pm] |
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alright. there are all these foreign non-puberty freshmen boys in my geometry class. they drive me insane. they make me feel like i have downs because i am behind them, and then they read ahead in the book so they are like four sections ahead of everyone else. so then they just talk the entire hour about the troubles they have with being geniuses and being able to read the book and magically understand.
that was about two months ago when i had to sit by them in the middle of the room, even though i was in the middle and they were by the wall they still wafted some funky smells to my side of the room.
but now we have a seating chart, and all i do all block is stare at the wall and wish i had something to distract me.
i am in the minority in that class, other than the geniuses, there is two other people, a guy in the back that does not talk to me. and a boy that i chose to name elton that sits behind me who is also a smartie and makes noises and squirms all the time.
so other than that my day was mournful because creative writing started it off with a very sad poem about a man who's dog died and nobody took regard for his dog. it just made me go silent. and i have to write a slam poem about anything i want. i have no idea what im going to do, please leave a suggestion. |
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[Nov. 26th, 2004|10:58 am] |
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uhhh. im leaving guyss, so everybody i told i would do something with and probably wouldnt have because nobody ever wants to do stuff with me cant because i am simply out of the country on those days. and thank you jessica for my thanksgiving dessert. |
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[Nov. 11th, 2004|04:49 pm] |
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okay, this is my first entry since i got hit by a car. and im going to pretend that walking is like getting an oscar so her is my acceptance speech
"i would like to thank the acadamy. and all you good people who helped get me to this glorious event in my life. first my granny, because she made me soup even though i was very tempermental. and my besties lauren, for helping me to stand, and take my first steps. and jessica, for picking up the putty off the ground after i yelled at her to get it and the only reason it got on the ground was because i said 'hey putty face, do you know why i called you that??' and then threw it at her head. just so you know, i wouldnt really do that normally, handicaptivness starts to get to you. and ms carly wilhelm and laura sfjsaljslfj for seeing me walk for the first time, lauren saw steps, carly adn laura saw me actually walk. and of course jessica again for teaching me that hygene is key."
and in two weeks i might be back at school. i have a doctors appointment on thursday and i will get the news. so until then you will just have to keep coming to my home. dont worry. i will have alot of food. |
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[Oct. 10th, 2004|11:17 am] |
hey kids this is lauren updating for vickie while she's in the hospital.
everyone please keep her in your prayers and i'll try to keep you updated on her condition. she was in surgery yesterday for 6 1/2 hours - everything looks like it went well and shes just resting for today and tomorrow. her doctor says she'll be in the intensive care unit for 10-14 more days so they can make sure all the surgery went as planned and do more if it's needed. after that she'll hopefully be moved to providince in novi and start her "recovery" there. i just talked to her mum on the phone and she said she isn't up for visitors today, but tomorrow i'll be going to the hospital with carly laura and jessica. if anyone would like to see her this week call me (734 679 6630) i'll check with her mom and give you directions and stuff. please keep her in your prayers.
<33 lauren
words of the lovely and talented victoria kate:
" that bastard ran me over with a car "
WE LOVE YOU VICKIE |
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[Oct. 7th, 2004|07:06 pm] |
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ugh i keep not doing my homework and im sick of myself. and then when i do get around to doing it i think i can just do it the next day and fall asleep. like i did today for like 3 hours. and then i hung up on lauren because i was half asleeep. i dont like class color day. i wore a black sweater and every one yelled at me asking if i was a senior. i thought i was gonna be cool adn wear a white shirt and act like i dont have a class because i didnt want to be classified. but then i got cold. today at lunch me and carly got attacked by bees. and they kept flying right in front of me aimed straight for me and so i would like bend backwards so they wouldnt hit me in the face. and then nobody could see the bees from far away so they thought i was being a dumb ass in a black sweater showing off how far she can pull a matrix. carly wrote me a note and on the back she counted to 500. i thought it was very very nice. i met a girl online who lives in england and spells her name the same as me. thats right. VICKIE. |
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